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26 November 2009 @ 12:01 am

Wednesday, November 25th, 2009 - Day 2



Hello, world. I'm back again. No matter how much you don't care to hear about my epic New York adventures, I'm going to tell you because it makes me feel good and that's all that matters. For now, anyway.

So we woke up at 9:15am this morning and got ready. We were out the door by around 11am and had Dunkin Donuts munchkins and a French Vanilla coffee (it was really really good.) Then, we took the 5 Train to South Ferry to get on the ferry to Liberty and Ellis Islands to see the Statue of Liberty. I had been past it before and it was also cloudy back then, but it was different this time. First of all, I had a much better camera so that was a plus but this time I took the time to just take in the breathtaking sight. It was much less colder than the last time I had come so, we took the leisure of getting off at the island and taking the time to go around it. We took a ton of pictures and by ton, I mean hundreds.

We didn't get off at Ellis Island because we were already feeling exhausted (so out of shape, it's ridiculous.) Then, we got off, walked up Broadway past Ground Zero, Wall Street and then stopped at SoHo, our destination. We shopped a little bit and unable to fight our hunger, we went searching for a pizzeria (because, well, New York Pizza) and people pointed us out to a certain Ben's Pizzeria. It was one of the best pizzas I have ever had and yeah, I gorged on some nice marinara sauce and garlic knots. We shopped some more till we got really super tired and decided to come back home on the 5 Train. We came back much earlier than we did yesterday but we're planning on shopping over night tomorrow, so much rest is needed tonight. :)

I guess not as many interesting things happened today but it was still very fun and we got to see the southern part of Manhattan, so all was worth it. :)

I may not be back tomorrow with an entry since I'll be shopping so I'll fill y'all in when I get back to Duke, I guess. :)
 
 
Mood: tired
 
 
Christine Ko
25 November 2009 @ 12:06 am
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009 - Day 1


So today was the official first day of my stay here in NYC. We set the alarm for 8AM and I woke up at around 6:45AM, complaining of a headache and all such. My friend decided that we should sleep for another hour and we turned the alarm off and went back to bed. After some time (and what seemed like only a split second) our generous host came into our room and said "Girls, not getting up?" And we both woke up and asked "WHAT TIME IS IT?" and it was 10. My friend got up, and I did not. I ended up getting out of bed at around 11. So much for 8AM, huh? But then I realized. What's the point of a vacation if you're more stressed out than you would have been had you stayed at home and vegged out. Vacation is about relaxing and doing what you want to do. Sightseeing is important, but not if it adds to the amount of stress that you've already been feeling up to this point. So there, I justified myself. Yet again.

Anyway, I was craving some hard core American breakfast food and there happened to be a nice cafe just down the block. It was pretty cozy and small but they had two "waiters" (although it just seemed like a cafe and a bakery) and I ordered Three Eggs made to order with toast, bacon and potatoes. It was so legit and a lot cheaper than I expected that it was such a great start to my day. I figured we had gotten lucky with our choice of places to eat.

Then, my friend and I headed over to the Empire State Building, where we flew up 86 floors to go up to the observatory and, well, observe. We took many many photos and the day was a nice day so I got a lot of really high quality, nice pictures. It was crowded but just vacant enough that we could stay in one spot for as long as we wanted to. I had been to ESB before but it was at night time and although it was really beautiful, it was really really cold and obviously the pictures didn't turn out very well. So I got the best of both worlds and it reinforced my belief that people should always visit one place twice. You get so much out of it the second time around and they're all different things!

We decided to wander East, towards Grand Central Station and the Chrysler Building. We got distracted by boots along the way (we each purchased a new pair) and took a lot of pictures. Starving for some sugar highs, we walked into a small cafe called Aroma and ordered a chocolate croissant and two hot chocolates. It was probably one of the best hot chocolates I have ever had. The chocolate was so pure and genuine that it was just pure heaven to drink it with legit milk. It was some random cafe on 42nd, and bam, we have ourselves a little treasure of a place. Seriously, New York is where it's at.

We walked past Chrysler, the United Nations building and then set off in search of Rockefeller Center. When I turned the corner to discover the two line of angels blowing trumpets and the view of 30 Rock from the bottom (like the B-Roll in 30Rock, the show), it was definitely cool and I'm so glad my friends humored me and took about 100 photos of me outside of 30 Rock and inside, with the Peacock. I bought two t-shirts (one SNL and one 30Rock), so there went more of my money. But it was most definitely worth it. 30Rock was awesome.

Then we wandered over to Times Square to chill there for a little bit (but not before grabbing the MOST DELICIOUS CUPCAKE I HAVE EVER HAD at Magnolia Bakery) before heading over to a Japanese restaurant where we had made reservations earlier. We met up with my friend's friends and had dinner together. Let me just say, Shrimp Tempura Roll at Sushi Zen. That is all. We all had such satisfying meals, it was ridiculous.

We all headed back to Times Square to bask in the neon lights and the rabble of the flash mob of people that just didn't think to die down. There were school groups, lovers, small and large families and of course students like us, in town to have some fun for Thanksgiving Break. We took a lot of pictures and had to resist the urge to grab hotdogs and honey roasted nuts, which was incredibly difficult. At least for me, it was. I honestly feel like I came to New York to eat good food, and I think that's a legit purpose for a vacation. Especially when you live in a culinarily depraved place as Duke often seems to be.

I arrived back at the apartment at 11pm and here I am, all washed up, ready for bed and blogging.

Today was an awesome day and I just hope tomorrow gets better (with just as good food.)

Photo Count: Around 1000. Epic right? I hope to be able to share them soon.


I learned a couple of things today:
1. New Yorkers are good at predicting when street lights will turn because as soon as they start crossing, the light turns to green. Nasty.
2. New Yorkers are always eager to get across the street.
3. I need to live in New York. Legit need.
 
 
Mood: happy
 
 
Christine Ko
23 November 2009 @ 11:37 pm
As I write this very sentence, it is 11:30pm on the night of Monday, November 23rd, 2009. I am comfortably sitting on a futon in an apartment on East 31st and Park Ave on Manhattan in the city of New York. It's basically what I dreamed it would be and slightly better so that was a good surprise but I expected the worst. Maybe I should take Catherine Willows's advice sometimes. :P

We (Susie, my fellow Vancouverite from Duke and blockmate, and I) arrived an hour ahead of schedule at JFK International Airport at 7pm. We took the taxi through the outer burbs of New York and then arrived on Manhattan via the Midtown Tunnels. We met up with Susie's friend at his apartment on 31st and Park. We came up, settled in, decided where we would be sleeping and made those arrangements. We headed downstairs to grab dinner. His apartment is basically on the edges of Koreatown, so we walked about three blocks to get some Tofu Soup and good Korean BBQ.

After an amazingly satisfactory meal and suppressing the hunger for chocolate (AKA Max Brenner) and adventure, we decided to come back to his room to settle down, relax a little bit and get a lot of Zs before heading out bright and early on our sightseeing tour around town.

That brings me back to now, 11:35pm.

Not very exciting but come on, what do you expect from the first night that I arrive. I have many more entries to come, obviously (Tuesday night, Wednesday night, Thursday night and Friday night).

Be back soon!

I hope everyone else is having a good start to the Thanksgiving holiday week.
 
 
Whereat: New York, NY
Mood: bouncy
atm ♬: Friends, Lovers or Nothing - John Mayer
 
 
Christine Ko
23 November 2009 @ 05:55 am
So here I am, just as I promised. Two and a half hours behind schedule, but we're on track.

So I'm off to NEW YORK CITY tomorrow, in about 12 hours. I'm super excited because New York is my favorite city in the whole wide world (as immature and childish as that sounds) and my ultimate life goal is to end up living there some day so you can see why it's such a big deal for me. I've only been to NYC one other time and that was just for one day and most of the time on a bus. Despite the fact that I did get to see Phantom on Broadway, one day (less than 24 hours) is MUCH too little for anyone to enjoy New York proper. This time I'll be there for 4 days and although that's most definitely not as long as I would like, it's long enough to enjoy it but short enough so that it leaves me begging for more. I always feel like that's the best place to end a vacation because then you know that you will come back some other time. If you stay in one place for too long, you end up getting tired of it and that's no good for the end of a vacation.

It's 6AM and I'm still not tired, which is crazy. I guess it's probably because I woke up late and all that weekend Sunday goodness. I only woke up late because I got back to my room from editing my film all day Saturday until 5:30AM. That's a whole another story altogether and one that I won't share because it just ends somewhere along the lines of "Why would I do that, I'm so stupid" and that's not what this post is about. Obvi.

But yes, EXCITEMENT!! That's one good news out of a really bad and just generally depressed week I've been having. It's definitely that time of the month but the gloomy-ass weather hasn't been helping. As I speak, it is pouring buckets outside and it makes me worry about our flight tomorrow. Boo, Durham weather.

I guess this week's been just really hectic and stressful overall and I took all of today to just get over it and relax a little bit, which I did. I caught up on some feel-good romantic comedies including Made of Honor (for the third time - I don't know why, it's not like I particularly like that film, I just like the way it makes me feel afterward.)

Anyway, bottom line is: I'm super excited to spend the next 5 days in New York City, and have every reason to be but I'm still recovering from the emotional low I've been having this week. I hope NYC is the answer to my problems and the response to my prayers.

Save me?
 
 
Mood: excited
atm ♬: Love Song - Sara Bareilles
 
 
Christine Ko
19 November 2009 @ 01:17 am
For the past week or so, I've been dying to write in my LiveJournal. The only reason I haven't gotten around to it is because I haven't had anything interesting to say or to talk about, even. I just had this really strong urge to express my angst and stress in a creative manner, but haven't had the proper outlet or the right motivation to do it.

This past week has been really busy and really stressful. I was supposed to be done with my film shoot on Monday and I was uber happy about it. It wasn't until I returned my film equipment that I realized I had missed two shots and would have to go back for them because they're really quite important. How could I forget. Seriously. That's why I had the shot list. I just...happened to miss it at that time. Boo. So the stress continues, and on top of that our film instructor told us that rough cuts were due before Thanksgiving. I just thought we had to wrap shooting before Thanksgiving. So now I'm going to have to spend the majority of my weekend in an editing room, instead of relaxing. Shit.

I have two papers and a presentation due Friday and they're in two different languages. GREAT. At least I got one over and done with today so I can focus on the other one tomorrow. The French one is tomorrow, obviously because I'm too scared shitless to try and tackle it right now. I might have a nervous breakdown. haha.. So I'm going to have to work my ass off at the library with the French book and rent equipment for my shoot on Friday. I have to also help my friend shoot tomorrow as well so it really really really won't be fun at all. Wish me luck?

On a brighter note, I did get my December issue of Esquire magazine today and played around with the idea of webcamming with Downey Jr. for about half an hour. Just as he said, we did seem entwined in this strange dimension of existence that it was really strange. You know what's even weirder though? I dreamt about him last night. I can't remember the exact specifics but I can tell you what did happen in a very vague way. For some reason, he and I ended up going skydiving/parachuting and although he was on a very busy and tight schedule, he agreed to stick around afterwards and give me an autograph. So he signed a magazine (might have been a picture) and I gave him a Duke sticker (don't know where that came from) and he appreciated that. Drawing up immense amounts of courage, I asked him if he could take a picture with me and he gladly obliged. Even in my dream state, I remember screaming with joy and when I said "My life is complete.", he laughed and found that very funny.

It obviously sucked to have to be torn awake from that dream by my dumb alarm clock but life had to begin again, so I had to leave my dream RDJ and go on with my day. Really sad when that had to happen.

The good thing about being this busy and this stressed out is that I don't have the time to mull over my personal problems. I guess it's a type of escape that isn't very enjoyable but it gets the job done. I don't have to think about how I feel really lonely at times and how I'm still very uncertain about what to do with my life and how much I enjoy going about my life at this present point in time. I guess writing that down made me think about it again but seeing the post-it listing all the things I have to do in the next couple of days makes it all better. Well, worse but better. I don't think I'm being very clear. Ha.

Anyway, I just have to hang tight for about...4 more days and I'm off to NYC on Monday night for Thanksgiving Break with my good friend here. It's going to be relaxing, busy, fun and most importantly, away from here. I will probably make another post before I go off.

Does Sunday at 3am work for you?

Excellent.
 
 
Mood: intimidated
 
 
Christine Ko
13 November 2009 @ 02:19 am
So, here I am, with a midterm to study for and a chapter of French reading to do but watching RDJ clips on youtube and posting on LJ instead. How glorious is my life right now?

The day started off bad. When I opened my eyes it was 12:30pm and I realized that I set the alarm but I hadn't turned it on. So I missed two important classes and I wanted to hit myself over the head. I got up quickly, changed into sweats and headed to Yoga. The weather was awful today and that obviously didn't help my feeling down on my luck and unmotivated. I went into Yoga expecting to do some downward dog and warrior poses but we had a guest speaker who spoke and taught us meditation. I had never tried it before so I thought it might be nice to immerse myself for the class, see what it's like.

It was strange. There were many thoughts and many urges to fidget or itch but I almost felt paralyzed in the pose and it was incredibly hard to move. My mind felt clear and my walk to Personality lecture was crisp and fresh. But there, I immersed myself back into my daily routine of worrying and sorting out what I have to do instead of what I am doing.

I always told myself and other people that I don't worry about things. I wanted to believe that I wasn't much of a worrier but today I realized that I worry excessively. After arriving at Duke, I developed a strange OCD-type attitude towards time and when I would go somewhere, meet someone or do something. If a time wasn't set the day before, it made me anxious and nervous. Yeah. That's what I realized today.

My friend came over and we had some nice bonding time over a pot of hot ramen and it was just what I needed on a shitty, rainy day. I felt a little better and proceeded to procrastinate and do anything else but study for the Italian midterm and read the French reading. Which is what I'm still doing I guess. Not good.

On the bright side, my cold has gotten better and I just have a bit of phlegm in my cough and not much more. I did give it to a couple of my hallmates though and they are now suffering, so I took pity and gave them some medicine. That's what sucks about living in a college dormitory: if one person is infected, the rest of the dorm is soon to follow. This time, i guess I was the perp.


I guess I'm getting back into the LJ groove but I'm going through another diary phase. Wish me luck with this one, maybe it'll last.

And I apologize for the lack of writing tact in this entry. For some reason my ability to write is getting worse and I think it's because I'm not getting much practice anymore. Back when I used to write fanfiction, it was my daily workout but now I don't have any of that. I really need to write more.


Picspam for today:



Try and tell me that this isn't adorable.
 
 
Mood: frustrated
atm ♬: Defying Gravity (Glee Cast Version) - Glee Cast
 
 
Christine Ko
11 November 2009 @ 05:08 pm

I started to dislike the old layout, so I decided to get a new one. Credits to [info]milou_veronica for another great layout!!!

In other news, my glorious trip to Los Angeles got cancelled. :( My dad was going to be there to put on a concert and I was simply going there to see him and obviously have some good father-daughter bonding time, but alas...the singer who was supposed to perform at the concert had to bow out because he was diagnosed with H1N1. Psh. Weaksauce. :P I hope he gets better soon.

So my week of ultimate stressful-ness is just going to continue on without that fresh air that LA was going to provide. But that's okay, maybe I'll take some downtime instead of having to worry about working my busy-enough schedule around this whole dealio.

Other than that, nothing much is new. I've recently started Twitter, have loads and loads of work as usual. I am now going to proceed and take a nap. :P 

Do you think I should start a new tagging system? I believe so.

Random picspam:


Nike model, much? *melts*
 
 
Mood: disappointed
atm ♬: Chances Are - Robert Downey Jr. & Vonda Shepard
 
 
Christine Ko
10 November 2009 @ 02:29 am
 
Yay! Made brand new icons for RDJ and feeling lovely about it. I got a new mood theme too! Props!

Still stressed out as ever. Have an interview for a executive position in the Student Government tomorrow. I'll let y'all know how that goes. 


Murphy was a filmmaker. It's so true. Whatever can go wrong, goes wrong on a film set. Especially if it's a no-budget, independent film. UGH.

 
 
Mood: stressed
atm ♬: White Christmas - Robert Downey Jr. & Vonda Shepard
 
 
Christine Ko
04 November 2009 @ 10:27 pm
 
So I don't know if I've written this down already but I am taking 5.5 courses this semester. I have PSY 100 (Abnormal), PSY 114 (Personality), FRENCH 111 (Paris 1913: Avant-Garde Literature), ITALIAN 1 (Elementary), FVD 130 (Intro to Production) and Yoga. 

So far, it's been a smooth ride, which occasional periods of stress. Midterms, papers, films. But everyone has those, it was normal. But I think I'm going to get my entire workload's share within this one month. I don't know why I'm stressing so much over it but I can't stop thinking about it and I think I'm coming down with something as a result. 

So my final project/exam in my film course is...well, a film. It's a 5-7 minute film, based on a screenplay that I write. So I have to schedule a shoot, cast actors, write/perfect my screenplay, rent equipment, scout locations, and do all that. Before Thanksgiving.

Normally, I wouldn't have a problem with this...but I'm going to be out of town for 2 weekends out of 4 this month, when I have the most work. I definitely did not foresee this so I can't blame anyone but...well, time. If there were more hours in the day of if I just happened to never need sleep (and no one else for that matter), this wouldn't be a problem. 

I have a midterm, a presentation in Italian, a psych quiz and you know, some french reading and a paper eventually due next week. This is incredibly awful and I just need some good music but I can't seem to be landing any good notes today. 

Just thought I'd rant, you know, release the stress. 

Thanks for listening. 

 
 
02 November 2009 @ 04:28 pm
 
So today is the second day of November, which I find completely outrageous. That means I only have about 4 more weeks until the end of classes, my 19th birthday and then winter break. Which means first semester has ended. Which also means that I'm almost halfway through my college career. It feels like it hasn't even started and talk about it being half over! But then again, I guess you could think about it as, I still have another half to go! 

Optimism, dear.

I hope everyone had a swell halloween, because I know I did! :)

And by the way, have people watched Season 4 of Ally Mcbeal?...There is so much love in that show, it's incredible. 

 
 
atm ♬: Send in the Clowns - "A Little Night Music."
 
 
Christine Ko
24 October 2009 @ 01:44 am

Well I guess that whole premise of posting during Fall Break went out the window as well. I was just so caught up with my ability to be unproductive, I just never reached LJ. It was a very good break, though, I'll tell you that far.

It's really crazy how fast the months are passing by this semester and sooner or later, it'll be thanksgiving, then it'll be my birthday, then final exams and then 2010. Isn't that insane? Then I'll be halfway done my Sophomore year. And before you know it, I'll have graduated. That was a crazy procession of events but true nonetheless.  

I'm not quite sure what I want to talk about right now and what kind of thoughts I need to get arranged, but I just want to say that for the past little while, I've been quite happy with my life despite the loneliness and angst that interrupts it occasionally. I don't know what it is about my life right now that seems good in my mind but I'm glad it's taken this turn. Just about a month ago, I randomly decided that playing around with people and not being honest to myself was no good, that I'd just rather be honest to myself and about myself than waste my time pretending to feel something I don't or to be something I'm not. It's just for my peace of mind, I guess, but it's been a life-changing revelation so far. 

So yeah, I'm pretty honest about my feelings now and honest about who I am. I can reject peer pressure, pursue what I want to pursue and live the life that I want to live rather than what other people tell me to live. Is this wonderfully and incredibly naive? Maybe.

On a brighter note, Duke Basketball season started last week with our scrimmage but more officially starts next week with our first exhibition game during Parents' Weekend. I'm so excited by the prospects of how the team looks, it's going to be incredible. I'm never going abroad for spring semester. Never.
 
 
Mood: amused
atm ♬: Maybe This Time - "Cabaret"
 
 
Christine Ko
02 October 2009 @ 05:12 pm

 The long-awaited hiatus comes. It's fall break and this time, it's well-deserved.

 This week was perhaps one of the hardest I've ever had the privilege of experiencing. There were midterms, tests, loads of homework assignments. In the past 52 hours, I have slept 5 hours and it's still counting. I think it's going to end up being around 60 hours with 5 hours of sleep when I'm through with today.

 If this week had been any other week, I probably would have fallen into a deep recession, one that is filled with angst and tormented moods. But this time, timing was on my side and fall break comes like a red tube comes to a stranded sailor out in the tumultuous sea.  I can actually be happy because I now have about 5 days of absolute vegging out to look forward to. Unproductivity, here I come. 

I will update on what happens throughout the 5 days. I'm sure I will have interesting musings to share, now that I actually have time to sit down at my desk and take a breather. ;)
 
 
Mood: amused
atm ♬: I Move On - Catherine Zeta-Jones & Renee Zellweger for Chicago
 
 
Christine Ko
02 September 2009 @ 01:18 am
Maybe it's just me, desperately trying to find something stable that I can actually control. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm back at Duke, with no one that I can utterly trust to be on my side all the time. Or maybe I'm just feeling the autumn coming on. It is September, so give me a break.

Whatever the reason is, I'm feeling pretty deserted, somewhat alone and basically lonely. I hate to admit that I ever feel lonely because technically I should be familiar enough with the sentiment to almost not be able to feel it. I only wish I could be desensitized to the emotion of loneliness. Perhaps life would be a little brighter than it is now.

Don't get me wrong, I have amazing friends who are there for me and are willing to take care of me through hell and high water. I'm very much enjoying my life right now here at Duke because I always get the feeling that I'm surrounded by genuinely caring and authentic people who are all about being real and down to earth. But something about the way I am moving around, about the way that I schedule things and just about the way I'm feeling right now, I feel pretty lonely. Maybe it's just that time of the month, or even the time of day. Night is a scary time for teenage angst, as I've mentioned countless times on this blog already.

I've been reading a book called "Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs" by Chuck Klosterman and I actually feel like I'm pretty much reading about my life. The preface felt familiar, like something I had said in one of my conversations with myself that I quite often have. The first chapter being about fake loves and then the second chapter being about The Sims (MY LIFE MUCH?), I feel like this book might just be the be-all and end-all to all my questions that I've ever had. I'll update you on that and see where that takes me.

But in all seriousness, I'm just going to admit I need someone I can rely on and lean on and someone who won't be a parent. Maybe I need a husband.

I guess all that buzz about not getting married just went straight out the window.

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Mood: apathetic
atm ♬: Fallin' For You - Colbie Caillat
 
 
26 August 2009 @ 11:07 am
So classes started yesterday and the fact that I'm back at school, taking classes that are going to count toward my GPA (a.k.a the rest of my life as a working person), is slowly sinking in. It's completely insane how summer is already done and I'm moved into my new room in my new dorm and starting my new classes, meeting new people. It's completely outrageous. FML.

But all in all, my exciting Dukie life is starting again and I have the feeling that sophomore year is going to be just as fun and exciting as it was last year (although last year had the advantage of it being the FIRST year of COLLEGE, which is a big deal.) I know enough to get myself around here and I'm still new enough to be a fresh face on campus. YEH. Sophomores, ftw.

Anyway, that's my rant for now. I will return with more news about me and of course, my new lover, Bradley Cooper. (Just don't tell RDJ.)
 
 
05 August 2009 @ 03:06 pm


So recently, I've been swept up into the whole photography thing again. I'm trying to devote more of my attention, time and love to my dear friend, Canon EOS 40D. It's a wonderful camera and I haven't been letting it see its light and shine! So trying to get myself into the mood, I dug up some old pictures and am looking at them now.








Those are just some I took and the rest are now on Flickr. :/   http://www.flickr.com/criminalrhapsody

If you see me around, remind me to love my camera a little more.

 
 
Whereat: Back
Mood: chipper
 
 
Christine Ko
30 July 2009 @ 09:42 pm
Where did my July go???


I've been working almost non-stop, taking on tutoring jobs and still working at this dreary place they call SAT Prep in Korea. Seriously. Not cool. But I've been learning a lot, reading a lot. I'm sure it helps some. I mean, thanks to Geo Challenge, I've picked up the flags of a lot of random countries that I would otherwise have never known about. It's good, I guess.

In about 2 weeks, I'll be back at Duke, getting moved in and starting yet an even busier life. It'll be full of international kids, transfer students and of course, a hell a lot of freshman. It'll be something different, me being a sophomore and everything, but I'm pretty stoked for it all. (Despite me living in Edens, the way to which no one knows.)

This summer has gone by quicker than any others I've known thus far. It's been a very interesting, scandalous and very productive summer. I feel proud to have gone through it but am kind of disappointed I chose to spend it this way too. I'm kind of split/ambiguous about it all so don't ask me to put any labels to it.


I'll update soon, hopefully.
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Mood: drained
 
 
Christine Ko
24 June 2009 @ 04:38 pm
 Summer fling, ftw. 
 
 That is all.
 
 
Mood: giddy
 
 
Christine Ko
16 June 2009 @ 05:05 am
 My favorite clip on YouTube right now. This woman is my hero. Rocks my socks while she's at it.

www.youtube.com/watch
 
 
Whereat: Seoul
Mood: distressed
atm ♬: After Love - Clazziquai
 
 
15 June 2009 @ 12:08 pm
So as I've been telling a lot of people who have been asking after how my summer has been, I feel human again. After about 2 and a half weeks of vegging out and starving (because I'm too lazy to exercise in order to lose weight. ha.), I am employed, teaching kids. I'm actually really quite valuable and needed in the workplace which is kind of a strange feeling. I'm out in the market right now, competing and actually being an adult. Strange how this transition has worked out, huh. I'm moving around, thinking, writing, studying my trade and it's been productive, really. The only downside is that I get less time for my friends and family which is unfortunate but as they say, if you gain something, you've gotta lose the other thing. I guess I was no exception. Blerg.

Nothing exciting has really been happening, no real big change in my life. There were a lot of pictures that I had in my head and they're all about to be blown away like thin leaves pretty soon. I pictured myself several pounds lighter than I am and I thought my hair would grow out some more but it hasn't. I haven't bought new earrings and I haven't really gone out to buy new clothes either. There are a lot of things I haven't done and it's probably because I wake up just before I have to go to work instead of using that time to do something more productive. Or it just might be that I'm possibly too lazy to try and change myself.

I'm using the word "lazy" a lot and I think that's just a consequence of me attempting to write something even remotely resembling serious at this hour after so many work hours. Excuse any language difficulties I may have had and may be having.

I think my lack of an exciting particular "summer fling" (unlike some of my friends. ;) wink wink) has resulted in the formation of new fandoms. Somehow, my life (or my brain, same difference) always makes up for a certain lack through engaging in new fandom. Fandom is my defense mechanism. By devoting myself to a certain entity, I don't have to worry about my own insecurities and feel safe in the fame and in the spotlight that my fandom gets. I'm sure it's quite psychological...or at least I hope I'm not another one of those mindless fangirls who just thoughtlessly follow crowds to concerts and premieres. But that just might be wishful thinking on my part.

Anyway, new fandoms is always good and productive news. Almost like getting new babies or new boyfriends (again, same difference). 30Rock, Shia LaBeouf, Tina Fey, Alec Baldwin, City Hall. All the summer goodness that I've been experiencing have been through these entities, my microcosms.

So if anyone asks, I had multiple summer flings, all at once and none of them ever found out about the other. ;)

Suck it, nerds.
 
 
Mood: contemplative
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08 June 2009 @ 01:44 am
So the trip to Vancouver already happened...about three weeks ago now. Time flies when you're not doing much and just having fun, doesn't it?

I'm in Korea now. Meeting Dukies, old middle school friends and family. It's really nice not having to do your own laundry for a little while. Hallelujah.

The food is good at home, despite my will of a diet. When you go out, there is plenty, just plain plenty of things to do and it's a very refreshing change from Vancouver or Durham. For sure.

But there are times that I miss being at Duke, being a student and studying (as lame as that sounds). It gives me purpose. But I think this wild desire will go away since I just started work today, teaching kids and such. Not very good money but the experience has been...confuddling, i suppose is the best word.

Anyway...I'll post back when I've got more to say? I'm sure I will in the middle of the night one of these days.

Hope everyone else is having a blast of a summer.
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